When the Mask Slides Away

...Decided not to tell the story after all. I'm a little too pissed about it. If you read my blog last night then you know, if you didn't..No need.

All I really want to say, I have said in the poem. I started writing the poem below almost as soon as I hung up the phone, after a bad conversation with someone who I thought I was patching up a relationship with after 20 years of silence. I usually don't publish my poetry (Tiel Ansari kicks way more ass in this department than I could ever hope to, so I usually just keep them to myself) but I have found that writing is therapeutic.

There’s nothing left to say
There’s no debt left to pay
We’re even now, we can walk away

The price a friendship costs
The bitter sting when it’s lost
It’s just grains of sand. We can let the past lay.

Playing for time, you lost more than you could ever find
When the mask slides away.

Living a lie you lose sight of the things you left behind
When the mask slides away.

The choices that we make
The hearts we have to break
We always hate those who we most envy

The way we used to be
The way we used to see
And what we were...Wasn't you, and isn't me

Losing the light your soul seems to take a different path
When the mask slides away.

Something inside just snaps, and you can't see the other half
When the mask slides away.

Deep in the night, and your eyes are still open wide
When the mask slides away.

Paying the price, you forget what it was you sacrificed
When your mask slides away.

You can argue all you like
I know you think you’re right
But look behind – Do you even see what you’ve lost?

Turning your back says much more than words could ever hide
When your mask slides away.

All that I’ve done and regret, at least I have gotten on with life
When my mask slid away.

All that we were has sunk into something less than us
And now it’s far too late

We’re too far along in life to ever regain that trust
We just turn away